Phew!

Wat a night... I've never been scared nor have I been worried this much before. It was really unexpected. Everything that people says keeps playing inmy mind.

things to take note, things to do before and after, and wat to expect. But, i guess i m strong enuff to face the truth, until it hits me, WHAM! right smack on my face. it really hurts to see it happens to your loved ones.

again, I guess, its a growing up process. i calm myself and keep my posture right. Putting up a brave front was no easy thing to do. especially when you got worried mothers infront of you. the heat and moaning is a killer to my mind. never can i face the fact that it struck like lightning and stings like a bee...

in the end, i got to give up for another worried mother and step back as the ladies, do their job. ladies really know wat to do when it comes to such knots.

when i woke up this morning, everything goes back to normal, or so it seems. i guess, i got to wait and see if all that worries and frantic search for peace are back as it was before.


you give me fever....