During my night shift, wifey and me were bickering about wat a father would do for his child. She actually insisted that I would sing Barney's Theme song on the phone.

"I love you, you love me

We are happy family..."

It's not that I wouldt sing it, but, firstly I hate that purple dinosour and secondly, wouldnt it bring down that heavily humongous ego to sing that kiddish song thru the phone? Wat would my colleagues think should they hear me singing that song? They she brought out a topic that we like to debate. To wat extend would a father do to his child?

Come to think of it, I am not yet a father material and wat my dad had did for me, tells me that a father would do all it takes to make his child happy. To all extend.

If thats the case, am I capable to do all that my dad did? Feed the family, teach his kids, all the religious rites and all the "let me do it", and at the same time, he got his own time with frens for fishing every weekend. If I can't sing a simple song, would I be able to lift up the heavy burden of raising a child when he's born? How am I able to stand behind him and at the same time tends to my other worldly needs?

One thing that i believe is that, when the time comes, I would naturally convert my lifestyle. However, I must say that I would still love to lounge with frens for 70 cents cup of coffee and talk bout how life pass us by. I dun think that I would wannabe like my dad. For my child, I would bring her along. In time, he would be able to recognise my frens and began to respect and treat them like how I am.

But, wouldn't it cultivate wat the Malays term as "budaya lepak" in him? Well, I think it all depends actually. If the motive is right, my child would know the difference between wasting her time doing nothing and spending precious time with frens.

I wouldn't be overly protective towards her either. I think, time has changed and kids need to be more responsible and independant since they were young. Unlike the time when shool children carry "beg melabur", children nowadays has to stand on their own believes. No longer spoon fed by parents. Even the curriculum has changed.

Changes has worry me and I am now scared to wat the future would bring for my children and grandchildren. Only time would tell if I can be a good father or otherwise....