Shagged

tired and constipated...

time and again, i was always misunderstood. why is it so difficult to say it on my face and not just keep it rotting in you? nevertheless, I thing maybe its better to be that way, I never mean to act or say things that's hurting, but my message doent go thru well enuff. should i get into a play role course?

it stinks man to be in my position right now. I really do not know wat else to do? am I a bad SIL (some of u may know now who i m addressing this post to)? or am I really insensitive towards your needs? I do have needs and my plans too you know...

am really tired of trying to explain things and in the end, it will still be the same. never had any intention to say any words or do any action that may cause hurt. it always interpreted to be as such. i tried to keep my distance. some people say that i dun respect you when I joke or play around with you. some people say that i must keep a distance and must acknowledge that I am of a lower caste then you. I did all that. in a matter of fact, i did keep my distance if u notice. seldom that i sit and chatted like i use to. seldom now that i joke around like i used too.... now its all done when necessary.

I myself do not wanna potray that I am not respecting you nor must I remind myself to keep all my tots to myself. spent most of the time on the puter or try to preoccupy myself with her. its not easy on my part too... i really am lost and do not know wat else to do. I do have my own tots to do and have always been in there for ages. do not know who to share it with.

Life sucks man... let me just store it in my tots till I die... watever it is, for now, if u think i m in the wrong, i'm sorry...