To : My little one...

Dearest little one,

I have been waiting for you to appear in my life for quite sometime now. I know that it would be awhile more before I can see you in person. To hold and kiss you while you are in my arms and to make you my little prince or princess.

I actually know you are coming to my life, knock my door and disturb my beauty sleep, few weeks before your mum and me confirm it with the test kit. Waiting for the moment of truth is like an eternity for me. Your mum and me are really excited and at the same time scared that its gonna be another false alarm. We were like shoving the test kit to each other, to read the result.

When I gathered enough courage and after telling your mum to be prepared for the worst, I flip the test kit. Seeing the result amazed me. I've never imagined that wat I saw on that day will bring me tears of joy. The warm feeling just envelopes me. I am sure it does the same thing to your mum too. We saw another strip that indicated your mum is pregnant. I swear that I almost shouted at the top of my voice. I swear that I almost skip and dance. I swear that I really wanna fall to the ground and cry. But, at the same time, I do not wanna put high hopes on this, as I know that the first three months are the most crucial period.

I do not want yourt mum to feel the pressure while you are in her. I do not want to force nor do I want to put too much hopes to your mother. My little one... Your mother have gone through too many heart broken tales. If only you were there to see the tears that accompany her to bed. If only you could feel the pain that she has gone through. If only you could hear words that others cast upon her... All this pain are cast aside and YOU are our BIG, little priority.

Baby... I know that I may not be the best father that you could have. I know that I might not be able to guide you in my life. But I know for sure that should u enter my life, I would give up the world for you. I would want to be by your side always. These are no empty promises.

Tears are rolling off my cheeks imagining you in my arms now. I dun care if anybody would say taht I am just putting high hopes for you, cos, I know that the hopes I'm putting on, are for real.

Baby... Just stay strong in there. Hold on tight through this rough journey. Be strong and grow well. I know you are lonely in there. No one to talk to or play with. But I bet you could hear our voices. Soothing you to sleep. My pats and rubs. Your mum are having a hard time swollowing multi-vites. Its hard to swollow, but for you, our darling, everything is possible.

I shall take my leave now and speak to you again soon. If you are lonely, just give a tuck and mummy will be there to coax you to relax, and take it easy. As for daddy,.... .... .. You'll always be in my heart.


Your Loving Dad,
Nazri